Excerpts from "our thoughts" - Another year passes by...July 2009

"I seem to be aimlessly running, sometimes I wonder why? but I continue

running..... Over this year may be I thought about Kapil only a few

times or may be more, these have most often been flashes of our buddy

- his famous dance in shorts after beer, his senti, pullikutty :-) and

sometimes about his last days, knowing what we did should have

prepared him better :-(

The world goes on, I hope the memories will remain fresh in us for

ever, I seem to be forgetting some already.

Hey! Buddy, you should come on a drive with me I never thought I would

ever drive, I remember all the calls and you advicing me to get the

license :-)"

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"Can't believe it is three years already. I want to go read some of his old emails - some of them were pretty funny. The last I saw Kapil was during Juggy's sister's wedding in Trivandrum. Never saw him after he got sick and in a way I feel glad that my mind is only filled with images of him in full form. "

"I think of him often...and most of the time when I am traveling to

office, I remember him. The few occasions when we all used to meet for

tea in Bhavani were so much fun. I try not to think of him as how he was

in the hospital ... only about his happy days.

And I hope we are never too busy to stop and remember all the good times

we all had in college together."

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" I still can’t forget the last look I had at him and the struggle he was going through while he was in Lake shore hospital… That same night he had left us…Loss is a loss …nothing can heal it……

Whenever I slog at office, I keep remembering his words.. “you will only be cared/needed by the company till you are healthy….chathukedannu pani edukkanda kurupeeee……”

Let us all pray that his soul rest in peace…..

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...memories are fading, but we have to be proud of the fact that we still remember him fondly...i am so glad that i saw his hail and healthy in atlanta ..

it will be 3 years tomorrow..time sure flies...

i sure do miss him a lot, esp the long phone conversations we used to have...it is funny that there are still certain occassions when i think about what he would have to say to a particular incident that happens now...

with a heavy heart.."

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"my memory of him is stuck at the scene where he said good bye to us when we were leaving after a weekend with him in angamaly home.

he was sitting on the porch half-wall in a black t-shirt with a very sad look and a frail body...he seemed to know that we may not get another day together..dont even want to remember the hospital scenes and the ones later...:-(((("

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"I feel so sad and guilty that I could not see him in the end my last memory him was when you guys came to Kansas I can't picture him any other way other than happy and optimistic
I remember kapil and bratty downing 5 tequilas in 5 min"

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" i missed seeing good ol' buddy by a couple of hours and could attend his funeral only. felt miserable "